[some damage written
in pencil very light]
Oct 3rd 1862
My Dearest wife Nellie
Soon after writing you three miles below here We learned that a portion of the 2nd was in town We therefore made application to them to take us to the Regt. The Officers ex[ ] themselves greatly to do so but could not procure arms equipment and horses here. So we were obliged see them depart with out us our foot it through the evenings country to Elisabeth town 40 miles with out arms. We prefer to romaine and here we are Now Dearest one If I could know that those left behind were well I should be happy. Although my health is not yet as good as I could desire. I had a chill yesterday [ ]ming and considerable fever followed it. I have some fever today. But do not for the world be uneasy about me for I am going to "Doctor" myself (with the assistants of my comrades). We are to be sent for in a few days to join our Regt. I think I shall be well then. And how sweet it would be to have a letter from you before we leave here. Please Dearest one immediately thus; and if we go before it arrives The Capt. will forward.
Mr. P. Bond
Care of Capt. Wadkins
Co. F Provost Guard
All we know about the war is that two companies of the 2nd brought up 284 prisoners the other day and that it is said that from 80 to 160 thousand soldiers have gone out of here since last saturday [this page is very light] I would write more but I have a headache and think I had better quit . Do be happy and love me just as you please. Oh Cornelia I do have [ ] a sweet time looking at your picture every day [ ] send letters[ ] We could not learn anything about Sebe. as no one [ ]asked [ ] [ ] and if I get time i will answer[ ]
Your[ ] love
[envelope: Mrs. Cornelia E . Bond, New Britton, Hamilton Co. Ind.
Dec. 4th 1862
Your affectionate letter mailed yesterday morning was received in the evening: It would be impossible to do justice to it in answer, especially as I last night sent it with most of my other letter by Edward to be deposiyed in the desk at your (our) mothers. Those words did indeed look sweet I shall be able to remember but few of the many sweet things you said when we were together. I do not know why it is, but for save cause or other it was never given to me, to remember much of anything when it is so all absorbing. My memory seems on such occasions rather to [?] and to retain nothing but a kind of ethereal dream of something too sweet to be defined or even fully conceived by my own senses. It is my nature to live much in the present and future, bringing up from the past only note and landmarks. When I am in your company, the language of the poet would will apply to me when he said. "Transported I am last in wonder, love and praise." When you are absent from me your image, your voice and your God-given soul-force, still hold me by their mysterious power, (which I hope they may never lose) and guide me in the right. It seems to me that you asked me one or two questions that should be answered, but I do not remember what they were; se please ask again, and pardon the misstep, for I forgot that it would require any answer when I sent it away. But I must give you the news. Sam. had a letter from his Cousin Emily in which she told him to prefer charges against me as follows, First that I had slighted her and Linda, since I was married. 2ndly. I owed her one letter that should have been written before I was married. 3rdly. She would not have thought I need to be so much set up with my wife that I could not speak to an old maid when I was so lately an old bachelor.
To the first charge I pleaded guilty and apologized. The other two I denied and asked them to correspond with us all. I think they will write to you and Melissa. I had a letter from mother yesterday which I will send you.
And now for Thom Moore If you will examine the police proceedings in tuesdays journal you will find that the first case disposed of on monday is that of A cavalry soldier named Thom Moore who was fined $18.62cts for striking a woman on the street and sent to jail to board it out DC.
Our officers have George Pool looking for them now. Well we have had a rumuor in camp all the week that we are to go away tomorrow. Simpson went home day before yesterday preparatory to a start. I hardly think we will go as early as tomorrow but I think we are not long for this place.
There! that is all I know of news. Now let me say Dear Nellie that I am happy to go although__________ Ah! Why need speak! you know it all Direct here in care of [?] and if we are gone they will follow us. Dear Nellie! I am gladly and proudly yours. Kiss me sweetly now. Good bye
I had a good picture taken today if you like it better than the one I sent you just let Ned take it home and you keep this instead.
Dec. 6th 1862
I am happy tonight. Melissa came down this afternoon and I shouldered my knapsack and came with her out to Mrs. Simpson's where I await the rest of the recruits. (The paroled men are not exchanged except the Capt. and Liut. We are to go at 9 tonight. I have seen Melissa and had a good visit. She is very cheerful. I should like very much to kiss you again before going but as it is impossible I will go cheerfully without! But Nellie I have been trying to decide which was the sweeter the first or the last kiss. When you kissed me last there was a rich expression of many and deep feelings up-on your countenance, brighter, sweeter and more sad than ever met my eye before. ________ Sunday South side of the depot at Jeffersonville. (?) the above (?) I was called to fall in - the Co. having passed the house. Simpson and I took a seat together in the car. We were both sleepy and we slept awaking a little after midnight. when for the first time since the three month's service we held an intercourse, sweet and uninterrupted. I may say to you (but not aloud) that his last visit home (and his last interview with the one who should but does not love) gave him more pain than pleasure. He does not tell Will, his sorrows for fear of troubling him. You know how I will labor to cheer him. I can't write much now; it is to cold here and we have had no fire here today. Charley and "Bob." reached the depot before we embarked. We are awaiting transportation over the river. Direct to the regt. till further orders.
And now Nellie; good bye!
Worlds can't tell all you know.
I love you And you brothers are well.
Dec 9th 1862
I am prompted to write you a line this morning by the fact that we are likely to remain here from six to ten days yet and I shall want to hear from you before we shall get to the regt. for they "say" we are to march through when we start. So please write to me directing as when we were here before, saying nothing about the regt. The Camp is full of rumors this morning. Among the rest it is said that we are all to be sent back again to Indianapolis. But I do not believe all I hear. So just write unless you discover by the papers that we have actually been ordered back We are in tents on that same dusty spot from whence I wrote you once before; but it is cleaner now. We have been engaged this morning in cleaning up our quarters watering horses &c. I am going to wash some towels and handkerchiefs presently. It is a fine day and I am very happy, but of course should be much happier with you. The Captain's eyes are still sore; a little better now however.
I had a sweet dream last night Nellie! I thought that I was telling mother that we were going to marry. I thought I loved you just as I do, but I spoke to her of it as a common business matter.
Wasn't that cool? But I guess I must close and go wash up. I love you you know, but you must not tell mother. Take care of Nellie for me and be happy till I come and then and then we will then we will try to be happy together.
Good Bye Dearest One!
[letter had some damage]
Park Barracks Louisville Ky.
Dec. 17th 1862
"My Dearest Cornelia;"
Yours of the 12th inst. was received yesterday. I guess I might as well just write along and not say anything about being glad to hear from you for you know I could hardly contain myself for joy. You are right in the presumption that it would not suit us to return to Indianapolis although we should live more at ease and be [ d ]those we love. I was sorry to hear that you were ill, but hope sincerely you are well ere this. You speak of good times in school this does indeed please me. I will gratefully accept the invitation of the children to write for their paper. I hope you had a good time at home. I too would like to have your head lay upon my bosom but that is a luxury we must forget for a while. Oh! Cornelia! the babies! God bless them! How I should like to see them! I could play with them more now than when I was with them. You are no doubt aware that Sebe is among the prisoners taken at Hartsville. They passed through here on Sunday last. Capt saw them take a boat for Cincinnati. There were 13 of Co. B. taken. We are now mounted and [egnipp?] except carbines. I am going to try (or blowing the bugle) bugling; which will relieve me from guard and other duties and give me a place beside the Caplt in all times of danger. Dear Nellie; I have some thing sadly sweet to tell you. The Captain was at town with me yesterday and as we came home i handed him your letter to read. He read it and as he returned it to me he said in a [?] tone, "If I could get such letters as that from home I should be a happier man." I could only say; yes! It is time to feed, bring in our washing and blankets, and supper &c. God Nellie! good bye till after supper.[damage] it is over, and we are now (nine in number) seated around the store variously engaged; some at cards, one reading the news, some listening and I writing.
But halt! I must listen to the news a little. Oh! Nellie! it is truly awful to listen to the story of that terrific battle at Fredericksburg: And think that our brothers were in the [?] of it and I not there to bear them back if they should fall or "Fight and die their for the Union." But Dear Nellie will not be sad or lonely for if my brothers die in defense of their country I will, with the help of your love -try to [?] it. I forgot to answer in the proper place, your question about my health. You may have guessed that it is coming round about right for I get supper brought in clothes fed up horse &c. in all near two hours / work and I did it all on the "double quick;" and was not tired. In truth I have rarely for the last year and a half felt so well as I have [?] now for a week past. But I will be careful about my health and if we lie here a week or two more as I think we shall [I] think will I come somewhat tough. O nonsense! I can tell [?] nothing this way,__I want to look right into your bright loving eyes and talk to you "face to face." I only think of one thing more in the way of news, and may that item never grow stale! It is that____"I love you!"
Direct your letters to Park Barracks
Louisville Ky Care of Capt. Edwards.
Give my love to the friends, take a share for yourself; be good to my wife; grieve not after me; hope for the best but prepare for every thing else. The sheet is full and I guess I will say alas! that it should be so! Good night
Here is a letter from Daniel: short able and sad. Preserve it with all possible care dear Nellie for I wish to read it when I come home.
Cornelia was a teacher at New Britton
Drk Barrads near Louisville Ky.
Written for the Dear children of New Britton:
It is with great pleasure that I accept your kind invitation to correspond with your paper. But this time I have nothing to write that can hope will interest you much. We are living in tents which stand in an open field. We lie on our blankets and overcoats to sleep. We are not in danger of the enemy yet, not being near enough for him to get at us. Some of us were walking in the city yesterday and I saw a great many children playing about a large church. They were school children. The schoolhouses here are nearly all occupied by sick and wounded soldiers, and many of the children are thus deprived of the privilege of school this winter. I hope you will all make the best possible use of your time this winter. How glad I should be to be with you; to hear you recite and play with you. I am well now and could play joyously if only I had an opportunity. When you go out to play, just go at it like you loved to play; love each other all the time; do not quarrel; and when you return to your studies you will feel refreshed and happy and can study because you love to. But here is a man waiting to take my letter to the office; so I must close. I know you will all be good to Nellie and love her for me. I will write again for your paper when I get time and have something to tell you.
New Britton Indiana
Dec 21st 1862.
Sunday Morning Cos' Brandon's
Dear kind husband
last friday evening I went to the office to get a letter from you and I got it; like you Ty I will not attempt to tell you how rejoiced I was, to hear from you nor how often I read the letter but will pass am to tell you something you don't know so will as you do that on Friday evening after receiving your letter I went to cos John's and yesterday morning went with Mr & Mrs Hamble to Noblesville, oh Ty! I never enjoyed a day so sweetly except in your company in my life, I first went to Swain's met with a very kind [?] for [?] the old folks and came near being used up by Matt, her first question was how is "Tiberias" and that was followed by a dozen more before I had time to reply to anything she asked, I took dinner there then called to see Zara Pantions of whom you have heard me speak she had just came in from the country where she is teaching school, oh what a sad sweet hour I spent with her. She was asking me all about you have I enjoyed married life and if it was not very hard to be separated from the one I love so well. I was trying to answer her questions and telling her that I was do much happier now than before marriage. She draued a miniature of a gentleman out of her basket, then a letter which told that the one she was to have been married to this winter, was among the dead. Zara was cheerful at the time but them was such a sad expression on her countenance, what would make me pity and love her more. I met a number of my schoolmates on the street, some of them did not recognize me and others would and would say "why Nellie Edwards! with almost as much surprise as I Said "oh Ty! Nearly all the young men that I was acquainted with have gone to war among them [Tom] Swain, but I guess I have told you enough about that visit. I didn't get to stay half long enough and am going back some saturday to stay all night. I did not know positively that Sebe was taken as prisoner untill you told me I am indeed sorry. and still more to know that he cannot come home. I notice in the papers that they will not give furlough to paroled prisoners any more, Yet if they are sent to Indianapolis Kate can go and see Sebe, oh wont he be glad to see her and Ellie. Kate was not at home when I was there. Dear Ty I would live to know how you and brothers are spending this gloomy disagreeable day, I hope you are happy oh Ty I do want to see you so much today but why should I tell it so often when it is utterly impossible but in [?] of the impossibilities I sometimes feel as though I could not wait much longer for you to come but I must lay down my pen and take care of Bell while Sue gets dinner, we have company today and Sue and another lady are [?] me they have told me a great many things that I never new and I think it doubtfull about it all being true at least I will believe as much of it as I choose. Now Good bye and a kiss.
Dinner over and I resume my writing
looking over your letter My dear Ty I have just been (oh there I made a mistake) and I find many items of importance, the last however is far the best and sweetest to me and Ty you need not fear that it will ever grow stale it is just as sweet now as it was the first time heard you say it, but it don't create so much surprise as then, you know Ty I was not expecting it, but if I remember it did not take long to convince me that all you said was true, one look at you was alsuffecient. Dear Ty I do not wonder that you feel a very great anxiety about our brothers in the eastern army more [?] at this time as they have no doubt been in the late engagement, and I fear that you will not be as happy and cheerful as you usual are and then the sad strain in which Daniel writes would be enough to allay to some extend your enjoyment, I know Ty that you are naturally so hapfull always looking at the side of everything yet I think dear Ty that you must have some such sad moments now oh how much I have thought of this of late and wish I might be with you at such times. I know dear husband that never can express my feeling on such occasions but it always seems that you can read my thought, and I love so well to hold your head on my bosom untill you could throw off the sad feelings and be your happy self again, but I must not indulge in such reflections and just now while I think of it I want to ask you how you sent that miniature to me I have heard nothing from it yet when I was at home I asked Melisa about it but she knew nothing about it and the letter from your mother I have relieved neither of them and have been wondering how you sent them, and while I am writing about miniatures I must tell you something right funny and the folks here think it is a good joke on you, it is this, when I was at Noblesville, I got the miniature of my old unseen friend Hector Fraser, it it had been there ever since the [?] I left there, he is what most every one (young ladies especially) would call a handsome man but I think he looks to much like a "black=leg", I must confess I am not very favorably impressed, however I may be mistaken, the girls at town who saw it think he is a fine looking fellow, I think he resembles Proff Thomas who went with us to [?] the folks tell me , I had better not tell you about getting it or you might get angry at me about it, I tell them if you do it will all be right, but oh how glad I am that I have no such fears, wouldn't I feel sweet to be affraid to tell you such a thing why you would be the first one I would this [?] of telling you see Ty I am saying sweet things to you just to keep you from getting '[?]". Dear husband it is night, I have been sitting here by the stove indulging in a sweet strain of thoughts and need I tell you my dear Ty that every thought was of you, oh no! you know that I always think of you, I am so glad that we know nothing of distrust, but always feel such perfect confidence in each other, I never think of you but that I feel you assured that you are thinking of me and my husband will not our thoughts and prays ascend and meet at the throne of God, oh what beautiful thoughts we can have even though we are separated, I feel happy tonight and more resigned than I have all day but sometimes Ty is it not hard to say "Thy will be done, not mine?" Here comes Willie is talking about "Ty" he always knows when I am writing to you and trys so hard to tell me something, you would not know Bell she has grown so; In a letter I wrote you and directed to the regiment I sent you a letter that I rec'd from sister Lizzie I thought it was good and funny, I also sent you a ballad of "Ten oclock at night", you remember how sweetly Sam sung it the night we were married. I learned it from the [?], by the way Charlie has got offended at me but still keeps saying funny things, when he is not to angry. oh I wish you could have heard him a few evenings ago. Ty in looking over this letter I notice a great number of errors, but I have had a very poor [?] to write there has been some one here all day [?] much talking that it was rather difficult to write then this miserable old pen, but here it is nearly time to quit writing oh my dear dear husband! how I could talk to you tonight if I could see you, I so often think of our last visit together and how sweet it was. I had almost forgot to thank you for the letter you wrote my dear scholars. I think such letters will do them good I do not find a great deal of trouble in teaching book learning for they all have bright intellects but oh Ty I have labored as hard to have a feeling of love existing towards each other and several times just as was beginning to think I had [?] [?] got my object accomplished there would some difficult arise and for a time almost discourage me. I sometimes feel that I do not take the right course and try some other plan. I find that I can conguer by [?] gentle means, in most cases, but nought of this for the present must retire I will think of you a long time then offer up a prayer for your safety and the success of my school for you are the two objects entest me the most just at the present writ soon to your own wife
Sunday morning finds me at the school howe I have just got a fire built and the floor swept it is not school time and none of the the scholars have come yet. I understand I am to have visitors today. I violated one of the rules of the old "flint lock system the other day I [?] one of the spelling classes and you [see] it as not going to work well, but now good bye my dear husband, I'll write you soon again, do the same.
Pike[ ]st 4 m[ ] from Louisville,
On Christmast day I received a beautiful letter fr[om] you and answered it. ([ ]y way of course.) since [ ]t time we have had some service. On friday night at 11 oclock we had orders to load five days rations in wagons and be ready to move at a moments notice. The Capt. had just had ti[me]to dispatch men to draw[ ]s and rations when he [ receiv]ed a dispatch to have the men all in Broad way at 6 oclock, mounted and [eq]uipped. He a[ n]d the other officers who[ ]ned (as we suppose) some[ ]said it could not be done, and they slept sweetly. Capt. orde[red] the men to pack, fill t[he] horsesacks &c. and about 5 u[ ] mounted and left Capt. Ross and Liut. C_[ ] dont know where. The[Liu]t. reported at the time howev[er ]and was commended, for promptitude. After several hours (mistake) waiting several hours for a detachment of Ten. Cav. who were ordered to report at the same hour with ourselves we moved out and then fell in behind. We [ ]down the [?his] as far as [ s]outh of Salt river, founs[ ] bridge washed away and returned. Arrived about 8 at night, after a ride of 40 miles. Found our tents [ ] or filled with other troops. W[ ]vered ours and having co[ffe]e and a coffeepot we supped, fed and slept. Morning found both us and our [guests] in much better condition [t]han we could have hoped. At one and a half oclock we were ordered to [fallout] at three. We did it prompt[ly an]d were divided into [squa]ds of 10 and sent out on pic[k]et duty. Capt. E. took the center post and took Sgt. Newberry and myself with him. This is all from our mess and Co. that are here Morgan is reported at or near Shepherds[ville] (about 20 miles out from [ ] having already to [ ]New Haven, 20 miles beyond Shep. I am bearing up well this far The[ ]t. has a severe dysentery and [ ] fever this morningafternoon. I jus[t ]recounted him to go up[ a]nd report not "able for duty." (as two other Capts. did last evening.) But he says he had as soon be [ ]s in camp. It is very l[ n]ow, that we will be kept [ ]pickets about Louisville for some time.
Camp is still at Park Barracks. Th[e wea]ther has been delightful [s]ince the day I wrote you.[ ]way firing is now heard death wene very near to you. I feel elated and beoyed up rather than depressed by the prospect of strife, but Dearest one! I do not forget you at any time. If I do not return to love and cherish you, it will be because i have found rest with my brothers, among the dead. As is the [?falling] breez[ ]the Oasis to the desert wan[ ] so, was your love to my lonely[and] desponding soul. On you, and [ ]love rests my prospects of happyn[ess in] this life; and if I have a hope of a lif[e to] come, I may well thank you for it. There Cornelia! need any one wonder that I love you? My hearts desire, is for your welfare[ an]d happiness. But why needs te[ll y]ou that you already know.
[another page found in same envelope]
My letter has been very hastily written in the open air while other horsemen scouted. and I doubt whether you can read all of it or not. I must soon go now. I hope we will be relieved tonight but it is uncertain. I have written many letters since we came to Ie. but have had a response from_____Cornelia only. Now if I do not get to send this out till tomorrow perhaps I can add something. If I do not write more allow me[ to] say, with a longing wish for your[ ]stant happiness.) Good bye. I will write to your school if I get time. I am happy and by no means sad. Im glad the Capt. is sleeping now for that his rest has been but small for the last sixty hours. Give my love to the folks at home and tell them to write to us if they conveniently can for we get but little news from that region.
Good bye Dear One Good bye.
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just dark; We have been called in, had a good supper and are going to lie down and await orders. Morgan is playing destruction all along the R.R. Troops are going out all the time I will mail this now least I have no opportunity
letter is also damaged. No date but seems to be little while after marriage
12 Aug 1862,
Now my Dearest one I wish to talk with you a little while. The last letter I sent you may have seemed a little cold. If so did not represent the heart that prompted it. I have just read again your letter of 15th,12th. You speak of desiring to put your arms about me. Now Cornelia that is really too endearing to think of. You know that however much desire it cannot be for a long time yet, if ever. Oh! Dear Cornelia, I do not think it possible that I should become estranged by long absence. I love you this morning with all the fever of the sweetest hour. And when a little while ago I was gazing at your picture (which I carry constantly near my heart.) I must confess that my feelings got much the better of me. It seems to me that you are the only object for which I care much to live, so much dearer than all else have you become. My lips are dry; I should like to kiss you. My heart is hungry; I would gladly embrace you. And your soft cheek; how I should be pleased to wash the dust off mine and place it along side. And above all to hear that voice (which to me is sweeter and richer than any other sound) narrating some fine story or confessing your love and confidence and hope of future happiness. But a long siege of hardships and anxiety and we know not what, must be passed before any of these can be. So Dear Cornelia our highest duty must be to defy trouble, smile at anxiety and laugh instead of weeping. Thus if we ever meet again we will be young in flesh and feelings. And prepared for a life of usefulness and joy. I have not dreamed of seeing you for some time. But what fine evening reflections! And it is upon these that we must depend for loves refreshing dew. So Dear Nellie! let these reflections be pure and free.
Remember that if I live I will come again to embrace my one happy and hopeful bride. If I should fail to come it will be a circumstance of war which we cannot controll. Then Dear one just consider me as an erring child that was but is not. Having been "called as a wanderer house." I think that all my folks will be kind to you. Do not think from these remarks that I have less hope of returning than heretofore I have more hope than when I kissed you at the door on that dark night. I do not know what to tell you next except that "I love you!" I am fearing I should not get a letter from you this week so perhaps I had better mail this lest you should fail to get one when you want it. Oh! Cornelia if you do adopt the baby you must not inform the distressed about it for I think our marriage is quite as much as they could bear. I had forgotten to tell you how glad I am still that we are married; how exultantly I answered yes, to the question ("are you married"). And there with what pride I present your picture which is sure to call forth some word of congratulation. I only hope that you may never be worse for marrying me. Perhaps you have told me in some letter not received whether you are to pass that terrible period of pain and suffering for our first born, before I can be with you. No more today Nellie Good bye I will kiss you sweetly when I come. Good bye loved one Good bye. Pelatiah